Little Einstein

mia-chan,

mummy is sad but is trying so hard to hide it

my little munchkin has to wear glasses!

kejam!

she's just a baby..she can't even walk yet. it's so ridiculous..babies don't wear glasses right?

until i found this website babieswithglasses.org/

and it makes me more depressed and angry. angry because i can't do anything about it. and depressed because we have to put mia-chan through all this. it's just so NOT FAIR!

she's just 9 (months, not years!)..how will she play and throw things around with the enormous thing on her face?

hubby brought mia-chan to an opthalmologist on Friday and i couldn't go because of work (makes me hate work even more. seriously thinking of career change, am not kiddin'!)

what he told me afterwards was a jumble of words i don't think even he understands, except that out little baby has to wear glasses all through her young years

i'm going to have to pick up mia-chan's new glasses next week and am not looking forward to it

but, i'm trying to keep my mind open (maybe she will like it? maybe mummy is overreacting a little bit?)

so i'm saying to myself..baby steps Liyana, baby steps..

we'll just have to take it one day at a time

macam x percaya

i passed!

macam x percaya je..

i was staring at the screen for ages before finally it hit me..that's it! over. done. no need to take written exam anymore.

and of course i also need to re-confirm this with hubby (just in case i'm seeing things :))

he gladly confirmed that i am still sane and of course happily dismissed the fact that he promised a bag if i get through this exam (he must have thought that it's near impossible)

a promise is a promise

but for now, i'm just over the moon with the news. i'll think about my present later...

mia-chan's day when mummy's at work

Mummy had been really busy since she started work

poor mia-chan had been spending her days at home and not allowed to go out (sometimes mummy worries that she didn't get enough sun)

After waking up, and saying good-bye to mummy..she would spend time in the living room..

Watching TV..

and this is also where her toys are kept

and she would play and throw things around the living-room (mummy gets to pick them up and store them back as she gets home)

sometimes, she sleeps..but don't be fooled, mia-chan never sleeps in a cot  (in her entire life!). Daddy keeps that cot because it was a gift from uncle and it's nice to look at

but what mummy hates is that mia-chan is lonely

..mummy knows she misses her cik su a LOT (she gets excited whenever girls cik su's age comes around)

and these days, she likes to stares out of windows..

maybe she wants to go out and play?

what am i saying?

of course la mia-chan wants to play outside!

when is mummy coming home?

just another rant!

...and i thought things would slow down a bit after exam

WRONG!

it's mental out here

us girls definitely do too much in our lives, and of course you're expected to everything right and on time like clockwork

i've been so busy i don't have time to give out and moan about how busy things are (make sense?)

the big BOSS is back this week from his holidays..and man, was he demanding

too bad u can't choose your bosses

what keeps me going is thought of 10 years from now, i will be on that spot, giving out orders and unreasonable expectations to my underlings

people knows doctors life are hard. I guess what they don't know is how hard it is

the moment the clock struck 5pm, you are drained out physically and mentally. I used to keep a record of how much i walk in a day (my old mobile has a pedometer, so i count how much calories i burn in a day and what not). Would u believe it, i would walk up to 10km in a day during calls? All within the hospital!

I don't mind that, really. It means that I don't have to go to the gym because i have enough aerobic exercise (like i have time anyway!)..but what really is exhausting is all the thinking you have to do, the stresses and the constant scrutiny you have to take

I yearn to be in a higher position than i am now, and yet sometimes i wonder whether that is what i really want. I kept saying how i should get into education (teachers are the best!) whenever it gets though (the too many calls and looming deadlines)

and yet, i wonder if i can survive with 'my lusts for bags and going on holidays' life style (that's where my calls salary goes out to)

there is no easy way out, is it?