women talk

don't compare your marriage to others..


came across those words as i was reading one of the magazines in che nin's house (because i have too much time yes)

and my first thought was...how true

che nin got married just a few months after me

but if you look at the way her marriages and mine differs...there's simply too much

being at their house for a few days makes me wonder at these differences

what they have achieved and what we haven't

like

a new car, a home, stable jobs and an upcoming baby...

we have..an old shabby car that makes all sorts of noises, a rented apartment (although we have just moved out), jobs wise we are nowhere near stable...

yet

we have mia-chan

mia-chan

i still remember

the moment that pregnancy test showed 2 lines...

i cried...and it was not happy tears..

i was scared, i was mad at myself and what's worse..a part of me almost blame the husband

we were only a few months into our marriage, living in a rented apartment and i was 26..

the things that played over and over in my head was i'm going to be FAT and stay FAT, i will never finish my exams and we will never get to go on a honeymoon

...we were simply NOT READY

how to build a family when we were not yet a proper couple? i was busy studying for exams, doing calls day and night while hubby was away months at a time to work

but praise Allah The Most Merciful

all those hesistation and negative thoughts meant nothing once mia-chan arrived

yes

we are still without a new car, a home or stable jobs...

but if we waited for the time to be ready

i believe it will never come

and although hubby is miles away from us...

we are doing OK daddy!