Checking in

My God it's been a while since I've been here

So many had happened over the period of my absence from this blog. My haven aka internet sanctuary had turned into a desert of life-less creatures

I have no intention of shy-ing away from blogging ..no2x
I have been reading and checking up on other's blog as always( stalker! Haha) but never had a chance to update mine

I blame the laptop. The new-ish ACER Aspire One has been at it again, making my investment a pure failure. As per Mr hubby favourite phrase..' you give peanut, you get monkey la..'

There's a reason why a Macbook Air cost 3x times more ( and people keep buying)

In my moment of dire need, the IPad came to rescue..my saviour as I will not survive withour my daily Purseblog forum hoarding

But of course it's not the best for blogging

As much as i wanted to create an out of this world blog with Colourful designs and amazing photography that you guys can feast your eyes on, i guess it will have to wait

I am giving the ACER another chance..before finding it's new and better replacement ( however tempted i might be) because i am barely scrraping through with my monthly salary

Note to self: have to do more calls next month

Late night shopping

Today thursday.. Late night shopping... So pi dating ngn my lovely hubby... After shopping, ape lagi.. Upacara makan.. Yumyum














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One of this will do me fine

Chain Around Messenger

Nora Danish has one. actually, it was my first CHANEL crush..and it's back! Was so disappointed when i found out it was discontinued

Yang, get me one for Christmas!

Misi

People might have noticed that I now have more free time. I'm always on the net, always commenting on facebook and yes, my blog appears more kept than before.

In times like this, my mind wanders..especially after that cup of coffee, it's like the molecules in my brain are working extra fast and hard.

This morning, i'm thinking of my next to do on the list. I have been studying hard ( sounds rubbish) and working hard ( not that i can afford not to). So, i decided, enough with the serious stuffs. I probably had done plenty for the next 6 moths.

I'm thinking holidays guys!

I am not going to be young forever. There will become a time where i can't afford to carry myself across the room without huffing and puffingg, holding onto my son's arms with my bad hips and creaking knees( my son?haha)

So my next go to destinations are ( in no particular order):

1. Bali ( because wverybody have been..and, they have the private swimming pool as in Fullhouse)
2. South Korea ( duh, because of Fullhouse and Winter Sonata)
3. Tokyo ( it would be a pity if I reach my 60s without reaching Tokyo..one can only hope)

Will think some more after i get back from work. I also of course want to go to Macca..but that not a holiday of course

What's on my mind

Life and death

When you work in a hospital, you would see deaths almost everyday..

But I have to say, it never was easy and it will not get any easier

I remember in medical school how they taught how you to break bad news. Complete bull**ks.

No matter what words you use, it still hurts and it won't change a single thing.

You have cancer and you will die. Bottomline.

I was crying my eyes out just now watching the last episode of Hani ( which ended ages ago I know)

Which is strange because if I were to do the same in real life, I would be sacked ages ago.

Iremember being brought in to my boss's office one day after a patient of ours died. This was when I was working in Palliative team and we were expecting this man to die for weeks. He has pancreatic cancer which metastases everywhere; gut, lungs, liver, brain..you name it, it practically went to every organ in his body. In other words, for him to survive would be a miracle.

I came in to work that morning to found out he had passed earlier in the morning. The priest had been, he was disconnected from all the tubes and oxygen masks and was ready for the morgue. We went in to his room to say our condolescence to the family and everybody went around his bed except me. I was standing at the far corner of the room without realising I had done so.

My boss called me in to his office just after 5 and we were all ready to leave. Now He was a German and has this very cute accent with a face very much like a santa claus ( very cute ok!).
He started talking about how difficult being a physician is, and sometimes you can get too attached to a patient. and I can't help but cried like a baby in front this man who I know nothing about outside of work. And I had never in my entire life shed a tear in front of a stranger ( kecuali time kecik2 la, time tu nanges macam x hengat bagai). That was my first and also my last time crying over a death of a patient. It's not because I'm a better doctor than I was. I think it's because I recognise when to distance myself away from becoming too emotionally attached.

I don't always succeed. I had an elderly woman who came to clinic once, and she was perfect. Ok, apart from diabetes, hypertension and high cholestrol, she was. But she just had to tell me about living with her daughter in law who runs a tight ship in the house ( which was actually hers) and a son who just follows around what the crazy woman says. In her own words, a 'bully'.
Of course, I had to go home and think about the poor woman all night long. All i did for her was give her a prescription and took some blood tests. I find it cruel. Me knowing all these going on in her life and not doing anything about it.

I'm sure there are worst case senario than that. But it is strange what sticks to your heart. A person can do so much to you than you can possibly imagine.

Right. Here I am blabbering and dinner is nowhere beyond ready. What i really want to say is life is precious. Wait. That doesn't fit with my story about the poorly lady. Fine.
What I want to say is, sad things happens to everybody. Sometimes you see their exterior and thinks God I wish i had his life. Stop that. You don't know their issues and problems, they might have been wishing they had your life instead. And, don't be a busybody trying to figure out and help other people's life too much..you might get hurt.

Lazy Sunday

Everybody knows weekend only comes 2 days a week

Which means its so short

Tolak tambah time oncall and what not, boleh bilang ngan jari je free weekends in a year

What I'm trying to say is, rugi lar kalau you let your weekend go to waste ie by sleeping sampai pukul 3 petang ( talking to myself here)

So i decided to wake up extra early to ENJOY my weekend ( by early I mean pukul 10)

And guess what I wake up to?

People out on the streets, decorating their houses with christmas lights. Pftt!

I don't hate Christmas, by all means you can spend your weekend buying christmas presents and new sofas and that huge LCD TV

But my God I hate Christmas lights..the pure reason being it reminds me so much of Hari Raya

I am not bothered at all spending Hari Raya here, because it hardly feels like Raya.

You would still be working, people all around you still wears shirts and shorts, and children still go off to school

But during Christmas, Tv would run re-runs of last years movie all day long, people wake up extra early to go to church and visiting families and you can almost hear children screaming happily opening their presents

So..depressing

Anyway, off topic dah ni

I just want to show you all my weekend...

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