Soulmates

Sometimes you do take things for granted..or people even


Yesterday, I stumbled upon this blog That in a way i wish i shouldn't have

The blogger punyer entries were mostly about her late husband

And the words are very sharp and honest, you almost feel the pain she felt as you,re reading them

they were her daily struggle, day by day living without her soulmate. She would talk about emptiness, about being incomplete, and then at times she would remember the things the husband did for her, what he would've done now if he's around

It was so heartbreaking, but i just have to read them entries per entries because i was so captivated by her feelings

And of coirse, being a medical person, i need to find out by he passed away ( which is silly i know)

I didn't cry, but my heart bled for her

I just can't imagine if the same were to happened to me

..i might not do very well

Truth is, if i were to lose him, i'd rather by separation...simply because i'd rather hate him rather lose him forever. Life would be more bearable that way

I sat in bed for hours last night, thinking about us

Then mr hubby called from offshore and i almost expect that it would turn into a bickering like always

Surprisingly, that didn't happened. Instead, his words took my breath away that i always shed a tear on the phone ( i don't think he realised this, Thank God!)

..' do u realise that I love you? I couldn't imagine living one day without loving you...'

Maybe your hubbies say this kind of cheesy and romantic words often girls, but not mine. Our conversation when he's away working is mostly bickering ( which i must admit i do miss sometimes) and at times ended by a short 'i love you' by him before hanging up

Maybe it was coincidental, but I would like to think that we were soulmates too, we can understand each other even miles apart

Marriage is not easy, even if you're a pair of lovebirds who've known each other for years

You not only marry each other, you also marry off your families as well

And then come the money issues, the hectic work schedule, etc

Ok. Why so emo pagi 2x ni? Nway, i'm starting today differently, and i will not watch 'the ghost' or 'the notebook' or those kind of soapy things for at least a week thank you