out shopping

i'm doing night shifts again this week...ie working from 8pm to 6am in a busy Accident and Emergency Department

NOT fun

i miss sleeping with mia-chan at night, and during the days i would spend most of my time sleeping to make up for the night before

it can be MOST exhausting..your body clock are just not designed for it

i'm sure all my hormones will go haywire as i'm trying to finish this week

GOOD news is...

i will get a week off after this

yeahoo!!

anyway rather than sleep round and try to build up my energy for last night, we went out shopping

and guess who's the most excited??

i was trying to find those clothes i mentioned earlier in ZARA website

and u know what?...i was well and truly dissapointed

i will never trust internet shopping again

they looked very nice in the pictures..and to be honest they should just stay in them

IRL they are either too 'jarang', too short or too long ( makes me wish for legs like Giselle Buchen.huhu)

i was wearing:
Top-A-wear
Pants-Miss Selfridges
Shoes-A-wear

well at least we get to go to Tesco...

ZARA sale!!

mia-chan was sick over the weekends..

high temperatures, vomiting, diarrhoea, the works...

i can't think when she gets sick..it's like everything went into 'off' mode..my only focus and attention is my mia-chan

she is recovering thank God..and this comes with temper tantrums and being 'manja' giler! (OK mia-chan.. i'm giving u this chance to get ur way because u're 7months. no more of this after u reach 1..mummy punyer girl needs to be strong!)

anyway..

i was pretending to study as i always do, and came across ZARA punyer website..

i just found out they do deliveries! and they are as of this moment on SALE! yikes!!

this is going to be bad to my pocket :(

but i come out with a good reason to purchase (of course...there is always a reason to shop!)

..u know how we are living Ireland and all (soonish)..and ZARA is my God so expensive in Malaysia

and how there is no hope in hell i'm going to find them in Kota Bharu

and their clothes always so high-quality (i'm a impressed customer..bought cardigans from them 1 year ago, my sister and i still rotate to wear it)

anyhow, that is all explained..i am now happy and convinced i'm doing the right thing in looking at these pictures

these are my top picks (for now)

what to do?

i can only have 2 of them. Ok, maybe 3...but i'm buying pants as well

this is NOT good..

Numb

Remember the song 'NUMB' from Linkin Park?

I used to get goosebumps whenever it comes on the radio

So True..

I can totally relate la!

When things just go out of your hands, and u don't know what to do...

U just feel NUMB!

I'm going through that phase again...

I am NUMB.

Sometimes i feel like asking for help from anybody i see (and i had to restraint myself from approaching them and spelling out my problems)

But yeah, everybody has problems of their own..so anytime u thought how good it is to be Hugh Heffner, think again!

Even the Playboy (or man? Old man?) got dumped!

So i'm going to think about Hugh Heffner for the next few days..not because i adore him, but because even the rich and famous have problems...like me!

Better yet, i will think about Cheryl Cole, who had recently lost her career (thanks to Simon the Cowell)..and will have to run back to the three-legged player ex-husband for future income

Aigoo...

I was pouring my heart to a friend recently, and her reaction was..

'OMG Liyana..That is painful'

Yes, i know.Thank you.

So i'm dragging myself to work, Tesco and bed with this pain for the last few days...and it will continue to be with me until God says so.. but God is fair, he knows what is best for me

I will continue..

But I am NUMB from the tip of my hair to the end of my toes

Sometimes I am detached from this world altogether

I have lost all motivation..

Things don't matter that much anymore and somehow that is good

Even though i don't know what i want, at least i know what i don't want..which is to be stuck in this rot for all lifetime

I am blabbering. Time for sleep.

May Allah bless us all and keep us and our loved ones safe from all harm.

Legally Blonde

i've just had a Legally Blonde moment...

nice pair of shoes

just got it yesterday on sale for 14 euros

notice anything odd yet?

here's a clue...

not only i've bought the wrong size of shoe for each of my foot...it's not even pairs

as a matter of fact, they are both for the left foot

great.

2 left feet with different sizes..

now where's that tall, dark, handsome Lawyer guy?

visiting baby Aisyah

another baby was born in Dublin

...produced in Ireland by Malaysian manufacturers..is what my brother-in-law used to say

apparently we are not only busy working or studying, we are also growing the numbers of Malays in this place

cool..

so we have to go and visit...and introduce ourselves to the new addition

but let's take pictures first ok..it was a bright sunny day and Mia-chan was behaving (well almost)

baby Aisyah is adorable of course..

holding a newborn brought back those memories

the clueless-ness of having a baby...aiyooo

poor mia-chan, your sisters and brothers will be better taken care of as babies

but u taught mummy a LOT

the 2 proud fathers

as a matter of fact, mummy is learning to make baby foods for you as i'm typing this..

it's boiling away in the rice cooker downstairs

you better eat it...or at least try will you?

mummy spent nearly an hour searching for those recipes

rice with chicken and broccoli (and then mummy will have blend it so it's digestible for you)

..yuck!

please3x eat it mia-chan...

huhu

what u do on a day off

i suspect we don't have many day offs anymore

my theory is that people in the 70s and 80s get more holidays than us...that's why they are more groovy and happy-looking

u could argue that depends on what kind of career choice u went to

but from observing facebook statuses, we are stressed-out kinds

work gets our highest attentions..

doctors vent about their patients anthics and the long-Q waiting to be seen in clinics

office workers would go about datelines and meetings or conferences

teachers?..they are actually busy..marking exam papers, organizing Parent Teachers Association meetings, school trips, etc

makes me think..what job is laid back and plenty of day offs?

perhaps none of them are

so when u are off...turn off your Iphones and stop checking your emails!!

At Starbucks

so i don't get great holidays...ie 2 weeks back-packing to Botswana or skiing on the Alps or a romantic getaway to Venice..

plus, beaches are too cold here and going picnic-ing is a gamble (always bring your umbrella regardless of the weather forecast)

Mia and Caramel Frappucino

the first time i arrived in Dublin, i see nothing but people with shopping bags...weekends or not, going shopping is always the thing to do

but u can't follow everything these people do...

u not only lose yourself, u also lose your money

that said, what i do on weekends is i go to the malls

..window shop for half and hour, and then coffee

and then head home to sleep!

yes

i'm easily contented. hehehe

us yesterday

weird smile, aint it?

yesterday was the farewell dinner party of our friend Izwan who is going back home to Malaysia in a few days time.. (for good)

when u are foreigners living in a country far from home, friendship is PRECIOUS

friends are indeed FAMILY

and we are blessed that we have friends that proved time and time again that they will stick by us through thick and thin

each year, at least one of us will leave Ireland, and i have to say although i am sad, i can't help it but be jealous..

someday, i want to have my own farewell dinner party too (hear that guys? and i want CAKE as well as pressies. haha)

several things had happened recently which makes me believe that the day is getting close

ABOUT TIME right?

life is indeed a wonder

one time u are planning this and that..and sure enough all that can go 'kapoff' in a matter of seconds

i was on the phone with mum the other day.. her words are sticking to my head since

'Remember Allah..sometimes it's too easy to get distracted, so don't forget your prayers and 'doa' a lot'

true.

only when u have problems will u sat on the praying mat and 'doa' with tears running down your kain telekung

....

OK. Off topic already

Here are some pics from last night

(don't be fooled by the lights..it was close to 10 pm yesterday.. i love summer!)

behind us was the bridge that was supposed to look like a 'Harp'. I don't see it, do u?

family picture

with Izwan and family

friends

Mia don't tolerate dinner that lasts more than an hour. this is how she is afterwards

The place we went to was "Swai'..a Riverview Malaysian Restaurant (that's what the banner said anyway)...

I'm wearing:
Top-OASIS (bought on sale. yes, it's summer sale already!)
Bag-Speedy with mia-chan's Barney as a bag-charm
Shoes-i know u can't see them, but i got them for 9.50 euros, so cheap!

Time for Food pics...because what else would you do on a dinner date? Take pictures of the foods and TAG your friends on Facebook laa!

Nasi Lemak with Beef Rendang and Seafood Sambal

Sate

'Dancing' Nasi Goreng...don't ask me where the dancing came from

next to the Nasi Lemak is Butterfly Jumbo Prawn...GORGEOUS!!

OK.

I'm hungry.

Speaking of which..

I Made BROWNIES (in case u miss that.hehe) earlier, maybe it's time to try some (well, it's actually my 4th time running downstairs and sneaking them up)

Homemade brownies...BIG MISTAKE!

Only make them if u intend to add a few kilos...

Ok

Last words...Goodbye Izwan and family. We will meet up again for dinner soon i hope (in Malaysia!). Safe trip guys..

Reality check

i was watching A Place In The Sun: Home or Away? the other day...

it's an afternoon show where...Jonnie Irwin and Jasmine Harman (property experts) help property owners find new homes - but will they stay on British soil or settle on some distant sunny shore?

(phrase borrowed from Chanel 4)

i could not agree more!

u only live once..there should be no limit as to where u can settle in and be a family

North Pole? Kenya? Beijing? South of France (beautiful!)? Madrid?

OK. There is of course the matter of passport and Nationality and what not

..still, Sarawak is Malaysia

how about starting over in the middle of the rainforest and being neighbours with the natives?

No Problem.

if u want to, why not?

imagine this as your backgarden

I mean, I am 27 going on 28..average lifespan of Asian female is 59 (roughly) so i have 31 years left to be walking this earth (that is if death does not invite me early)

Why spend my years some place i don't belong?

Guys, I am being hit with the sudden realization of what is important and what is not ...

What is the use of strutting around with expensive handbags if u are not happy?

What is so great about working overseas and speaking British accent if deep inside u are worrying?

Time for a reality check.

I am spending seconds, minutes, hours, days, years doing things that i don't like (well not really)

Why?

True. I have ambitions. But how far would you go for them? Would it be at the cost of losing yourself?

No.

This girl is listening to her daddy and going to do what she'd always wanted

...Be Happy.

my latest obsession

up above, my dear friends, is the Chanel Petite Shopping Tote or better known as PST

let's not talk about price..yet

instead let's enjoy the beauty and the craftmanship of this delicious piece of art

because, what else do u call something of this high level of beauty?

it's ART

a heavily priced ART

last March it retails at 1080euro...they were talking about a price increase in May, which i won't dare to find out as i've never set foot in a Chanel store

(i didn't dare to..they might chase me out. huhu)

and this is what it looks like on someone else's arm

it's bigger sister, the Grand Shopping Tote is of course bigger and comes with a higher price tag..1660euros

Chanel GST

BUT it's heavier and bulkier, so i've managed to steer my mind away from it altogether (plus there's no way i'm paying that amount of money for a bag)

that being said, there's no way i would find 1080euros to buy a PST either

us mere mortals would only dare to dream

tea time

it's Sunday of a Bank Holiday weekend..

and it's raining

after waking up at 12pm, i decided to go out.. because what else is there to do eh?

so an hour and a half later, we headed out to what seems to be the only cafe in town

well not really, but parking in town is like nonexistent, so to depend on an inexperienced driver like me to park from behind on a busy street is basically suicide

so yes

it's decided that we're going for tea

in a place where there are LOTS of parking space

eventually, i found one

it's actually located within a hardware store (Woodie's) which is like the strangest thing ever

and it's a small cafe at the very corner of the shop

luckily, Irish don't go out on rainy days (and it's Bank Holiday, they prefer to spend money out of state where the weather is much nicer) so there are not many people around

which i prefer

and so is mia-chan

she is having the worst stranger anxiety...so we avoid lifts, bargain stores and the likes

Latte and blueberry muffins on a cold rainy day is just heavenly

and i bribed mia-chan with petit filous

well, it didn't work! she won't even sit still for pictures

so after 10 minutes, we hurriedly finished our coffee and left

and that was the highlight of today folks!

i miss mum

it's easy to miss mummy dearest when u're in trouble

well, i'm not exactly 'in' trouble, but life is somewhat a lot to take on at the moment

it's been a month since we've been back, and things are not easy

and true to the nature of things; when u're having problems, another problem always follows

i think 'why is this happening to me' is my favorite phrase now

and this would be followed by mum's voice in the background 'what are u moaning about, u've been blessed with more than enough already'

yes, i hear u mum, even from thousands of miles away

i have been yearning to tell mum the 'all sorts of mess' i'm in, and the list of 'Things To Do' that just got longer and longer each minute (some of them i never got around to, some of them i've been avoiding for weeks)

oh mummy, if only u're here...

sometimes, i just want to pull up a STOP sign or pause the remote button or whatever it is to get a break from all this

..what's funny is, i'm already on a break

mum..mummy..i really do miss u

life is so complicated

VERY complicated

why does it have to be this way?

i wish everything to be SIMPLE

..like ME!

now i can her mum's voice saying 'why are u wondering about things that cannot be changed, just go ahead and DO lah'

how i wish i can fly her all the way from Malaysia to Ireland

sometimes, i would look at our empty room upstairs and imagine mum is in there ( i am that bad!)

oh mummy,

i want to tell u that i'm really not in trouble (i'm not in debts, i haven't been sued nor have i argued with my BFs), but life is always one step ahead of me and i'm tired of playing catch-ups

...so don't go worrying

but it would be nice to have u here, so i can lie my tired head on your lap...just for a little while

Candy

i've been meaning to post this ages ago...but, as with everything else, it got lost in the middle of busy work hours and mia-chan (mummy loves u!)

remember those few days where i made a sort trip to London? well, it's been proven since that it's a waste of plane tickets and accomodation fares ( i flunked again!...with flying colours)

but hey, i didn't come back empty handed

i was clutching  this bag on the 13 hours-flite home

and true to the purseforum style, here's a reveal of my latest candy

Speedy 30 in Damier Azur

the lock

it fits a lot

sweet!

and here are modelling pics

and as with everytime i failed an exam, i would like to say...

THERE'S A SILVER LINING BEHIND EVERY CLOUD

my silver lining comes in the form of a bag, and although i didn't get the bag that i wanted (which hubby promised me if i get through this exam)

...i would have to content myself in believing that there is always next time

and there is!

as i am currently opening old notes and doing questions online..AGAIN

next exam is end of July

i have to say that this is nowhere near fun... it's like opening up old wound to look for foreign bodies (trust me, this is truely not fun)

but

SUCCESS COMES TO THOSE WHO PREVAILS

*positive thinking is what i'm trying to do here*